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    Stepping Out (2) – Highly Commended

    Stepping Out (2) – Highly Commended
    June 28, 2017 admin

    My beloved husband of fifty years died yesterday.

    I stepped out of the hospice

    -feeling elated that my prayers have been answered,

    he has finally gone home, away from suffering and life so diminished.

    -feeling relieved that he is no longer my responsibility,

    I am free to care for myself and do whatever I want.

    -feeling exhausted after nine months of caring for his every need,

    countless difficult hospital visits, house filled with people and equipment.


    My beloved husband of fifty years died last week.

    I stepped out of the church

    -feeling good that today’s funeral was full of joy and infinite love,

    even our three broken-hearted children found it a positive experience.

    -feeling proud that our four young grand-children rose splendidly to the occasion,

    the sad day of memories enriched by fun and laughter.

    -feeling God’s presence in the huge attendance,

    prayers for me from a multitude of warm hearts.


    My beloved husband of fifty years died last month.

    I stepped out of my bed

    -feeling broken as I work out a new normality,

    discarding his un-needed possessions.

    -feeling lonely in the dark, listening to the silence,

    stroking his pillow, talking to an empty space.

    -feeling fragile grappling with financial matters,

    the mower, the car, the computer, then eating alone.


    My beloved husband of fifty years died a few months ago.

    I stepped out to life

    -feeling nervous that I had taken on new challenges,

    but hearing my beloved say, ‘Keep moving forward’.

    -feeling hope because resurrection is a given,

    and ‘I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me’.

    -feeling thankful for family and friends always available if I need them,

    and for all those years blessed with the love of my life.



    © Ann Cooper

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